Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I have much to be thankful for - the events that unfolded almost as if it was really magic, totally unbelievable and too close to be just plain coincidence.

but i'm tired. ironic. just after a pumped up weekend of being 'recharged and refreshed' i'm seriously tired. and i know that i'm the one to blame for my tiredness. sighh.

if i close my eyes real tight tonight, made a thousand wishes to be home and be over with it ALL, and try really really hard, do you think it'll work?
:(

"But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight

You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget you only get what you give"
- New Radicals, You Get What You Give

M2 Playhouse 2009 - FTW

"Are there ever adequate words for this experience? When you are suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of feeling, a knowing, when you are drawn to someone (or a group of people) in this way? With the strength of the unavoidable?"

— Deb Caletti

though practices were long and tiring - especially the cast, directors, producer, stage crews, lights and sounds, costume and makeup, and every single person who has made this playhouse win possible; we have to admit that the journey, THIS journey, was worth it.

After tonight, i'm refreshed and recharged!

ironic isn't it? when my mind and body is no longer in functioning mode,

but my soul,

oh! how my soul sang tonight :)

A world of their own

"So it’s environmental. All we need to check is parasites, viruses, bacteria, fungi, prions, radiation, toxins, chemicals, or it’s internet porn related. I’ll check the internet."

- House

but my brain is only this small

:(

how?

Happiness is a cup of coffee and a really good book.

i have seriously got to get use to the speed we're travelling at. it's as if my body has been thrown into some time tunnel and i'm just free falling through the days, hours, and minutes - really? november already? now, if only my brain and soul can catch up with my body... sigh.

night cycling came and gone. was a fantastic ride in a very rainy night, but the rain was just nice. droplets weren't too big and it was as if just right, to have that much fun cycling (dancing) in the rain was like a blessing from above. with aching thighs and sored butts, the ride was worth it and this year we made it! all the way to east coast park. the food was good and the company even better. yayy.

home/something like that - then i was packed and rushed back to Johor for All Soul's prayers and a good weekend with thefamily :) talk about pillow talks and stuffing myself with so much food to last till the end of the year, i mean seriously. hahaha i miss home everyday.

and zyin, i'm really glad you called me today, even though i was between sleeps and trying to catch up with lost sleep, because really i can barely clock a normal sleeping pattern anymore. besides, all the trying was making more tired than i really am. thank you for whining and letting me randomly ramble. it's so good to have someone like you in my life. haha you make me wanna fly back all the time! which is horrible! now study hard and go kick some dental ass.

.GOSH. I NEED TO GET ON A PLANE AND GO SOMEWHERE.